Why can’t I just quit?

I needed to let out my frustration on an ongoing issue in my life. UNI!

Anyone who knows me, follows me on  twitter, has me on facebook or bbm will know of  battle with higher education. I REALLY hate Uni. With a passion. Being there just makes me so angry, upset, frustrated and annoyed. And yet, i am still here. I have never enjoyed uni, since the moment i started. But i thought, “let me just wait a few months, i might start to enjoy it”. I was wrong. I’m at the end of my second year and I hate it just the same. Yet, i still haven’t left.

To me, i don’t think university is 100% necessary. If I had known how irrelevant uni would be for me, i would have never bothered going. I think i felt pressured into going to uni. What would i be able to do with my life if i didn’t? I also felt my parents and family expected me to go to uni as that’s just the next step in life after college isn’t it? When i think about what i want to do in life, i don’t think being at university helps me any more than if i just went straight to work after college. With my career path, work experience is equally, if not more important than a degree. I wish i had known this three years ago!

I am spending over £3000 a year on tuition fees (let me not even mention how much i have to pay back in student loan fees on top of that kmt!) doing self directed learning.I am paying £3225 a year to TEACH MYSELF. That’s ultimately what i am doing. I honestly cannot say i have learnt anything since being here. I’m not sure if that’s because of the uni i go to, or just the course i am doing in general (however I am pretty certain it is because of my uni). Basically, it feels like iam paying for access to a library and a few guest lectures a year. Its just a waste of money.

It is also common knowledge that the employment world is not how it should be, although it is getting better, finding a job in your chosen career path is ridiculously difficult. So there is the simple fact that I may leave university with a degree but end up in a meaningless job just so I can pay bills and live. On top of that, in my chosen career path, it is likely i will have to intern (unpaid) for a few years to get higher on the career ladder. I cannot afford to be working for free, and finding a paid job in my field is a lot harder than i thought it would have been! So i could potentially be wasting three years of my life, and a ridiculous amount of money for nothing. As pessimistic as that sounds, that’s just how i feel. And yet, i am still enrolled.

Also, the fact that I hate writing essays, working in groups, doing coursework, hand ins etc doesn’t really go well with the uni life does it lol. I really do not understand why i am still here? Maybe im scared i’ll become a failure if i do leave.

I guess i’m also hoping that my degree (if i pass that is) will benefit me, and that I’ll leave uni and land the ideal job (HA!). Or that my degree will help me get into my other fields of interest. It also burns my heart and soul that i have wasted two years to just go and quit and achieve nothing from this. That would ultimately be the biggest waste of time (and most importantly, money) wouldn’t it? I’m still in deep thoughts about this, no decision has been made yet, but i best start making some soon!

In life we must do things we don’t like  in order to move forward and become successful, right? :/

MissCherry.x

Some People Are So Hard To Please…

I was reading some comments about the big Uni raves that took place recently, Shutdown & Youni House, which brought up a few views, so i thought i might aswell blog it instead of arguing on twitter lol.

What exactly makes a rave live? And who’s fault is it if its dead??

After a rave, a lot of people will come home and bitch on Facebook or Twitter, blaming the PROMOTERS that the rave was dead. Why is it there fault that the rave is dead?

To me, the job of a promoter is obviously organise a rave, and PROMOTE the rave. Obviously, a lot of promoters think a rave will be live if they put 30 DJ’s and Hosts on a line up and make sure the rave is so packed that people can’t move freely and BREATH. That will NOT make a rave live. To be honest, i’d rather go to a rave with about 5/6 EXCELLENT Dj’s Host on a line up, rather than a rave with about 4 good djs and 20 mediocre ones! Half the time i don’t even notice the dj’s switch over until i hear the same songs being repeated! kmt

Some people blame the DJ’s and Host, and i think, they are more to blame if a rave is dead than the promoters. If a DJ plays the same old bait tunes, and repeat songs that have already been played then yea, the rave gets very boring. There are some hosts/Mc’s who just can not hype up a rave. They just chat a lot of hot shit over a beat and it just gets boring. There’s like 3 or 4 people GUARANTEED to hype a rave! (Trilla, Coldsteps, Zest, Funky Dee maybe more but obviously not as good if you didn’t pop up into my head lol)

HOWEVER,  I 100% believe that the reasons why raves are dead is because of the RAVERS. Majority of the raves i go to that i consider dead, is because everyone will stand around the edge, or be sitting down the whole night. WHY DID YOU EVEN COME? yuh na have chair an wall at home? You paid how much entry, spent how much time getting ready just for you to come and be BORING?

People are only ready to dance when FUNKY comes on. I love funky, but there are OTHER genre’s of music!! People don’t appreciate Bashment(I mean real bashment, not just dagger dagger, jook jook, in deh in deh bashment!), or Old skool jams, or R&B, Garage and grime no more. The rave is most live when Funky’s on. As soon as another Dj plays something other than Funky, the room clears a bit…Am i lying?? I wanna know what people did without Funky, i don’t think raves existed!! You’re NOT a raver if you only like ONE genre of music, EXPAND your mind!!

I will go to a rave in Sutton,(which is predominately filled with white people) with some unknown Dj, and i will have a BETTER time than when i’m at this big, hyped up raves…Why? Because white people know how to have fun!! Fact, they will dance to everything! They go out and have a good time. I’m not racist obviously, but i really am i starting to HATE going to raves that are filled with black people. A lot of you are TOO STOOSH! You only dance to a few tunes, and if you don’t like it your quick to run off to the nearest chair. And even if you do like it, your unlikely to bruk out and have fun lol. Therefore making it awkward for people who want to bruk out, making them centre of attention. The whole point is to go out, have fun, dance, interact and enjoy yourself. There is no point in going to rave if your just going to dead it for other people, stay ah yuh yard!

I think ravers are too reliant on PROMOTERS and DJ’s/ HOSTS to make a rave a live, when YOU are just as involved as they are?! What exactly do you want them to do?? Make you dance? Tie strings to your arms and legs and move you like puppets?? Do you want clowns and balloon shapers there? Some people are just TOO hard to please!! The ones who complain about dead raves…:

-Are the people who ASSUMED the rave will be live cos of the 30 man line up.

-They’re the ones who ASSUMED a rave filled with 2000 people will be a live.

-They’re the ones who ASSUMED going to a rave in Leicster on a coach, but is just filled with the same kind of people, will be a live rave.

-They’re the SAME ones who complained about the last “Dead” uni rave, but still go to another rave with the SAME line up, and the SAME people, in a similar environment.

- They’re the people who ONLY dance to funky.

- They’re the people who sit down all night or stand by the wall.

So obviously, if all the raves you go to, are all “DEAD”, maybe you have to think about how YOU contribute to the rave? What are YOU doing that is obviously not making the rave live??

The raving scene is definitely dying because of the Funky over-load and ravers attitude to other genres. I think we are ALL to blame, not just the promoters! But who do you think is to blame for a DEAD rave??

MissCherry.x

Response: What Did You REALLY Go Uni For?

Hiya People… Make sure you watch this video!

I watched a very…disturbing…not disturbing…but a very RIDICULOUS video earlier today. I wont be uploading it, but Basically its a video on “University” students after a rave. I quote “University” because, i can’t ACTUALLY believe, they could possibly have the intellect to go to university (my opinion).

What is university for?? Well i thought it was a place to gain a higher education, more knowledge, get a degree for a better job and future. But OBVIOUSLY i must be wrong. According to the video, it looks like university is just a youth club, an excuse to jam and rave and “rep your uni”.

Obviously, Uni isnt STRICTLY education, its a place to meet new people, gain new experiences etc. But i think some people are taking that a bit too far.

You cannot have a “thug” mentality AND go to uni. You can’t do it. Its like mixing water & oil, it WON’T work. How are you going around acting like a badman, treating your uni like your in some gang? how? Uni & Gang? No. Won’t work ever. Like Twist said, if your doing a road ting, then you would be doing your road ting. you WON’T be at uni. Real talk.

Your not taking out a STUDENT LOAN to pop bottles and buy Ed Hardy. Your not paying over 3 Grand a year to be arguing over which is the best uni. Do you REALLY think that your university want to be represented by people with that mentality? No, i don’t think so.

I thought University was a place for mature students, but i must be wrong. People are acting like 15 year olds at Secondary School. GROW UP! You got into uni, so behave like a university student and become someone your parents, friends and university are proud of.

If you disagree with me, your probably the person i’m talking about! But feel Free to comment and leave YOUR opinion.

Quick Note : I guarantee half them guys in that video are going to do retakes or re-do their entire year!

MissCherry.x